Selfish desires
Before seeking, ask yourself "how will I react when the results aren't as planned?", and if you don't like what you see.. don't seek that path. When we "put ourselves out there" for some sort of feedback, and do not get the desired results, raw emotional fits of rage over a "no" is sometimes a result, best to not ask those questions... Keep it to yourself and meditate on it, or think about it long and hard if meditation is not for you.
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